kali ini berasa jenuh, jenuh banget malah. Just look like pertama dateng kesini. Merasa kosong, dan capek. Dan kali ini pertanyaan itu muncul. Kenapa saya harus disini? Apa yang saya cari disini?
Feels like i wanna cry. Saya disini mau ngapain itu saya ga tau. Apa yang saya cari itu saya juga ga tau. Mau keluar gimana saya juga ga tau, karena saya udah terlanjur nyebur. Mau kembali saya udah separuh perjalanan, mau dilanjutin itu saya bakal mengalami 2 kali lipat yang seperti ini lagi. Mungkin lebih.
Kali ini saya down. Bener bener down. Dan saya cuek, ga peduli. whatever dengan apa yang ingin dikatakan orang. Udah ga peduli lagi mau mereka apa. Saya mau gimana, apa pendapat mereka, just say it. I don't really care for now. I just wanna cry to some one. Wanna lay my head on some shoulder.
Its not like i need some vacation, i just tired. I wanna go out from here. Soon!!!
I know with this i become so immature, but what can I do? Even they are at home can understand me. And people at work just mind their business. I know that they should do that. Because i just someone who interupt their life.
Sometimes, i wanna go to someone home. Who knows he is. I just wanna share laugh with someone i don't know. I wanna out from life i live on right now. Just wanna be ordinary girl. I don't need all of this, i just need my family back. I just need my home, and i just need someone who care me, someone who i can care for.
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